Need to start packing my study table and kickstart my first ever chaomugging semester. Cause this sucks and I will not let this happen again. Fucking GPA 5. Here I come. Nb. RAAAAAAAAAAARRRRRR I AM NOT GOING TO GRADUATE WITH NO FUCKING HONORS.
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Now its one hour into 2010. And I saw fireworks from my living room. Singtel network was jammed. I'm awake.
Oh sentosa the other day was fun, checked out the Shack which was pretty much the ideal chillout place I would never get sick of. The sea, the sand and the beer.
Sentosa tomorrow! Ignore love in a lapdance, pray for super good/hot weather tomorrow! :D
Leon Lai died an ugly man. HAHAHA
:D:D:D
And first hour of Christmas' Eve by the river :D
Caught Avatar today! Pretty awesome movie, love it
Sometimes things happen unexpectedly, mood swings, and the wrong words came at the wrong time. I admit I was upset.
Shameful is not my middle name, when I put aside my pride, I wish I would get it back someday. Because there's nothing wrong with this.
I'm proud of you and I wish you were too.
One republic's songs really give me chills. But I'm loving them :)
Christmas party tomorrow. I'm not having the Christmas mood. And I got the most dreaded christmas gift ever-Chocolates. Dont want, I bring home and eat ): I'm not looking forward to this year's christmas party though. But I know I will enjoy the shopping with the babies before that :D
Training today, I ran one round BR in slippers. Haha, cui. more running to come. I hope no one will be late tomorrow, me inclusive D: I'm fucking tired. And I see this meeting will not end that early. Omg. Eyes. Closing. Omg cannot take it. Can someone switch off my modem accidentally. Then I can pretend I dc-ed and cannot come back. ): I cannot understand what they talking about. My brain is dead. I am super tired. That ahpui text me halfway fall asleep. How can. I need to escape this. I'm hungry. Tomorrow training at 8!
Ahpui, save me, where art thou. D:
ilmbmmmm :)
This trip had really been an experience, good or bad, its definitely a lesson learnt. At least the girls didnt come home empty handed, a gold and bronze for 10-women crew. I'm so proud that our small boat is doing better and better. From how we used to be out of the top three to gradually moving into the top three. But many strong opponents are up and coming, this race definitely let us see how strong and threatening they are. Need. to. train. harder.
Other than that, my heart had been heavy throughout this trip. Many thoughts were running. At times, I'm just sitting there, thinking of the same thing over and over again, trying to get things right, trying very hard to convince myself that what I'm doing is right. I'm suppressing everything, can you tell. Because I'm afraid of the consequences. I'm afraid of history repeating itself.
bilanymtae,
I need another story
Something to get off my chest
My life gets kind of boring
Need something that I can confess
I still have the same words for you 'Fuck off and too bad'
lmfbs! csmmh :)
I'm finally free from exams though now I have to start worrying about my results ): Went for trainings this weekend! And heading to penang soon! :)
Anyway, I chiong home after training today. Feels so shiok to be at home in the afternoon. I had lunch, and nap till dinner time before waking up for dinner. But I was too ful to finish my dinner. And my dinner is quite nice ):
And now I'm lazing around, watching tv, surfing the net on the bed. Wheee~
And tomorrow I will have the whole day at home, what should I do.
Futile attempt to study at Starbucks today ): It was too cold and my iced vanilla latte just doesnt taste right )):
BUT! Lamb shank at nydc for dinner :D And cakes from Big O.
I think I will die again tomorrow. Within couple of exam weeks, I died so many times. D:
Anyway, had spanish paper in the evening, the only paper I completed 99%,1% from forgetting what is sunday in spanish. Tsk. Hope I can do well and pull my pathetic gpa up. But I think this sem, my other mods will pull the already cui gpa down down down. ):
Last paper to go! WHooooo.
[HAHAHA, the above is a tryveryhardtocomeupwith spanish sentence]
Anyway, I found my ipod. :D :D I think my crumpler has a secret compartment. Cause I swear it wasnt there then. Creeepy. So I'm happy :D
2034 is horrid. ShitzxZXxz.
And my ipod played an awesomezx song by nickelback :))
Back to mi libros :3
And you know I love you, yeah.
1. I lost my ipod. Fantastico.
2. I had nonya dinner for the first time yesterday.
3. I cooked today's dinner :)
4. I dozed off, woke up sweating, thank god there's aircon and coffee.
5. Where's my fucking ipod.
6. Adam Lambert! :D
7. I need my sugar.
Life's sucks. When there's a gain, there will be a loss and vice versa isnt it. My ipod must be making way for future iphone. Might be a blessing in disguise.
T.T I miss you although ure ugly as hell.
hs,yhbsas :3
Anyway, I hate the shujianjun, I cant see his tiny and illegible handwriting from online lects and I cant understand him ): I'm DOOMED. But I'm going to stay up as late as my eyes and brain can take and try to absorb as much as possible cause I realised, sleeping early doesnt help in my memory anyway. Experience came from this morning's paper. More than half the duration of the paper, I spent it people watching, flipping my papers and grabbing my head. I'm DOOMED. I'm so sure I would db, I started thinking of ways to make the submission of my answer script a void like writing the wrong matriculation number. Possible? Hahaha. Okay I'm starting to feel a little sleepy.
After tomorrow's math paper I'd have 4 days break to prepare for 2004 and espanol! :)) Cant wait for the break, consecutive papers are deadly.
Okay back to Laplace.
1. I MUST ATTEND ALL LECTURES AND TUTORIALS RELIGIOUSLY (thats if they are not after a 3 hours break)
2. PRINT ALL LECTURE NOTES/TUTORIALS(BRINGING THEM TO CLASS INCLUDED)
3. TAKE NOTES IN LECTURES INSTEAD OF SLEEPING
4. DO TUTORIALS AT HOME
5. ATTEND ONLINE LECTURES AND DO REVISIONS DAILY
I SWEAR I THINK I WILL DO ALL THAT.
And I'm saying this because I know I'm so scewed for my two papers tomorrow and the day after. I have no idea what I am studying and I have to start from scratch because my lecture notes are either not printed or empty. Bless me that I will miraculously figure my way out during my two papers. Like some formulaes which will appear in my head for me to scribble in my answer booklet. I have no time, no chance, but I do have alot of faith and belief. HAHAHA, I believe that I can do this, even without much studying. As long as I believe in myself, my brain is powerful enough to bring me through this oncoming disaster, isnt it.
Great, so I moved on to facebook :D
HAHAHA just kidding.
icl,iliwy~ :)
knn, I am sbdl.
On a happier note, Phoenix clinched silver medal at tertiary women 10-crew. Great job. Weekend well spent cause its not on studying :)
Bathed and lunched at gwc, studied for like 30 minutes before going for an impromptu movie. 2012!
But I was quite tired throughout the movie and there were so many people dying, like gordan who miraculously managed to fly his family to safety died in the end, the yuri's gf who almost died, didnt but drowned in the end and of course yuri died. And I really dint catch the part why he dint manage to board the ship. I dont get how the tibetans got into the picture. And the family of four lived happily ever after.
I dont like the movie, its just earthquakes and more earthquakes, more volcanic eruptions and more tsunamis which flooded the whole planet till the sea level almost reached the peak of mount everest?! I think I said I hate movies with disasters, I still do. So silly. Best part, they played Adam Lambert's new song at the credits. :)
Kenny Rogers for dinner, ribs and chicken! :D
Homed and I damn tired but I need to read abit for 2008! TSKK.
hfc,mal :)
Nanyang audi was freezing and I breezed through my paper today cause there're not formulaes, equations, working examples I forgot, purely because I remembered none. HAAAAH. Wish me luckk for this ):
And I feel as if I had conquered 6 papers when it's only my first. I was home and watching tv like I'm done with exams. Then I'm back at my study table D: I want 4th dec to come soon.
Regatta this weekend, I have to be sneaky.
Circuits and math next!
lmsagbsislg,il :)
Enjoy this awesome song :)
2001 sucks. Every mod sucks. Just that I'm having this paper tomorrow, its draining andstressing me out like RIGHT NOW. UGH. I had a nightmare when I took my nap at my study table. Fuck, it was so scary. ):
I think I'm going to forget everything when I start my paper anyway, got to rely on the pathetic formulaes in the formula sheet. Tutorials, online lectures, past years! WHY SO MUCH TO STUDY. I still have 2 chapters untouched. HA HA HA, I'm so dead. T.T
I dont get the video much, but the song is nice :D
Since you went away, my heart breaks everyday
And I want to buy toto, HAHAHA
I should stop dreaming and really buy those possible tickets to happiness.
I feel lucky. :)
Ihatethisbugflyinginfrontofmerightnow.
I smack it, it falls and it gets up and start flying around. Damn that tiny bug.
I AM SBDL TRYING TO GET MY SFDss AND BMDss RIGHT. FAAAAAARKING DL!
SIAN.
Need to get out of the house. And play.
ilmsasddg! :))
Anyway, I have been really shagged out for this exam studying period, sleeping at almost daybreak everyday and had to survive on short naps, intentional or not, throughout the day to keep me going. I need a good sleep after my exams, 12 hours of sleep to compensate for my losses.
And I actually managed to crawl out of bed this monning at 6:15 for training after sleeping for only 2 hours. And the bus ride to tampines I was busy playing LUXOR. Was exhausted even before training started. DD:
My youtube converter is spoilt cause I cant find the songs I converted! ): Was trying to convert Britney's old songs, again. She is BoomzXz!
Regatta is coming!
I want to party after my papers but I'll be in penang. holidays! wait for meeee.
And I want to go bkk. ):
Anyway, I saw charcoal, that black and tiny furball. Aww, all were cute till I smell his breathe. D:
Hello to my SAG! mlfmty!
Other than that, I'm looking forward to the overseas trips in dec, Penang and Beijing! ((:
immfba, itilmhwhbifsewh, lmm :)
This morning was a bad attempt to wake up at 0630 after sleeping for only 2 hours. D: End up I was so tired, I shut off my alarm clock, picked up f's call at 0840 and still concussed till 1130, missing all three lectures/tutorials/important revisions! D:
Had lunch in school, halled and to lwn. MY EYES ARE CLOSING/CLOSED -.-
3 hours later..
Actually, its quite interesting, after listening to the tutorial explaination. I think I can be good at logic gates. HAHA, but I'm only done with tutorial 1. Good luck to me. ): MOM, MOM, I haven touch MOM D: I counted, I have many days for fluids, so yes, its not time for fluids yet. 2001, 2008, 2004, 2007, 2005!
Spanish listening was bad ): I only caught leche out of cafe con leche I still thought I was sharp enough to hear the word leche but everyone else seemed to have heard cafe con leche. FAIL.
IMMFB,LAA! :)
Not all geeks come in a package, while some nerds have peabrains.
I dont give Karma a fucking damn, you know you know?
Had BBQ last night, it was not bad :)
lmfmofmm :D
Woke up at 12 today ): So I skipped my whole day of lectures, except Spanish class later. Listening and oral next week, so dead D:
Stay gives me chill, somehow.
And I'll be here in the morning if you say stay,
if you say stay to me
And I finally went for a haircut :) Not the nicest haircut but at leasy its not the worst. I feel so goooood to have short hair again, though I came home to see my recent pictures and I missed my long hair already D:
Have a long break tomorrow before xlbss and yes I'm finally having xlbssss buffet! :D
And, I decided to be nice and waited with a granny for her bus cause she couldnt see in the dark and I missed my bus ):
*waves enthusiastically* YES! I WANT I WANT! LOL
I love coming home to a tet pack of OJ in the fridge (:
I'm a Orange card holder! Whee, have Thai Express with me!
Did a different kind of training today, the 2 minutes endurance sets which drove everyone mad especially the triceps workout. ):
Going home tomorrow after spending 3 nights in hall. I hope my mum is cooking (:
I'm hungry, its three, I should be sleeping ):
I'm putting all Adam Lambert's songs on repeat, so niceeee :)
I am 20 now! :D
Wheeeeeee~
School is fine except I cant make myself stay awake for lectures ): slept an hour away and now my parents are especially strict to make me wake up on time for my 830 classes. D: I swear I dont know my alarm clock had been ringing for the more than 15 minutes until my dad or mom starts the panick attack in my room. So sad, I cant snooze anymore, I cant skip my 830 classes anymore, except Fridays! Hee.
Anyway, I love home cooked food, the pork vege stew and chicken stew. Wheeee~ Guess I'll miss home cooked food for one week ):
I'm looking forward to what the BFPM has to say! :))
And I love Adam Lambert's new single!
MBFM has got to be my favourite pest :D
Conclusion I drew from the whole bitch talk, we are not some fucking 9 year olds so dont talk to us like we are. Its time to fight back. Like KA-POW.
I secretly enjoy this bitching going on.
Till then, time will tell.
:D lmboj!
I am so upset. Crushed my dreams, my hopes, my motivation, my almost everything. Ohmygod. I cant live~~~~
DD:
Burnt and exhausted.
This weekend had been so hot. Too hot to be out and about ):
And I cant seem to dedicate my weekends to revisions, I'm so dead for the final exams
I want to go shopping tomorrow but I should be studying. sigh.
I want to eat steammboat and xlbsssss
My head is bursting..... Ugh.
Spent alot on food today, ahh, like alot of meals D:
Anyway was at the flyer just now for dinner and millenia walk for lkp.
Oh and I hurt my wrist in my sleep last night, probably crushed by some unknown giant and no joke, it really hurts T.T
This week had been full of activities, sports appreciation night, mayflower, blood donation, team bbq :)
Talking about blood donation, I managed to pass my iron level test this time! More donations to come.
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I feel so frustrated when I cant make myself feel better. This issue had been constantly on my mind and I'm really really getting sick of it. And because of this, my mood had been fluctuating really bad, why cant I have peace from within ): Why cant I just tell myself fuck it and not be bothered. Tired of how people look at me, helpless about the things that are happening and how the next moment can be so unpredictable. And I absolutely hate it when there are people who make life worse for me. I need to meditate, I need to get out from the nervous wreck.
Because I should be happy. Life's beautiful. Stop thinking.
I feel like I have trusted the wrong person. Fuck up. I feel so sore, so annoyed, so pissed. I can kill some zebraaas. D: D:
Anyway, Day 1 SAVASPRINTS is over ): no medals yet. Now I wonder, how could they let a 20 women boat join a mixed category race. Shouldnt there be a minimum number of guys in a boat like how there is a minimum number of girls in the boat to make some sense? Anyway, my boat lost to the women only boat, in a mixed race. So depressing. Missing out even on the bronze medal.
Tertiary women's was a disaster I feel. Shitty shitty.
Opens 18 women crew tomorrow. Opponents are super tough, super dolphins, nus and many others. All the best (:
I spend 2/3 of my time sleeping and 2/3 of the time awake falling asleep, not a case of insonmia but serious cant-get-enough-sleep problem. D:
SAVA is this weekend! (:
Wouldn't it be nice if we could wake up
In the morning when the day is new
And after having spent the day together
Hold each other close the whole night through
Three tests this friday, tell me am I going to die ):
When I grow up I want to open a zoo,
you can be the monkey, my mum will be the beaver
..
my brother will be the fish so I can catch and fry it.
I'm so full from dinner.
Mid Autumn tomorrow, full moooooon :D
No mum to ask me to clear the bin, pack my desk and stop staring into my laptop. And I can blast the music from the other room Whooooooo :D
My stomach is not feeeeling well again. Damnit. lslslslsls DDD:
I'm having second thoughts on keeping a dog now. LOL.
math tut is very hardddddd lar ):
Muscle achessss D:
Just around the corner from you
On the edge of a dream that you have
Has anybody ever told you it's not coming true
Caught The Time Traveller's Wife today. Not bad a storyline but confused me a little, all the movies with time travelling, teleporting whatever confuse me. Just like The Prestige ):
Next tearjerker has got to be My Sister's Keeper with the crybaby(gerlz) HAHAHA
Superdog for lunch, Gelare for dessert, Nihon Mura for dinner.
Mixed training tomorrow then team lunch :)
you should just stop talking,
because you are not at the top of the world,
and I'm not at your feet.
kyhomg
I was so bored, I browsed through my fb pictures, I actually missed June Race period ): All the intensive prep trainings, kena gan by ah hee, having trainings almost everyday, under the hot sun, doing endless 1km sets, spending whole day at kallang because of double sessions and the race weekend when I kept having PRSS and definitely post race partying and the long break from rowing. Awww, it was all pain and gain. I want to go through this again. :D
Rowing and Coffee Bean/Starbucks :)
So fluids CA was cui. I read through tutorials and this similar question came out but I couldnt remember the details so I couldnt do D: CUI.
Flew back hall, nua-ed and left fro JP for KUISHINBO dong dong dong :D Okay I really have to admit I'm a loser when it comes to buffets cause I get knocked out really soon. Sashimi and mussels. FTW :)) Grocery shopped before heading back hall to bath and hall-hopped over to apple's hall for some intensive nuaing and zou bo session.
Had quite an early night as compared to the usual time I'll sleep whenever I stay in hall. But I is still cui the next morning. ):
Rowing was alright. Kclub after that. But I fell asleep near the end of the thing. So tireddd.
Lamb for lunch and dinner today, I love sheep. Yums :B
